So, I'm graduated from highschool :)
yeah XD
My ceremony was crazy, I was very nervous through the whole thing; shaking and jittering like a time bomb. The whole time I'm shaking and feeling like I'm about to pass out.
haha! I made it though! :D
I also, am going to Washington D.C here soon, to receive my congressional award. :)
I have achieved the Gold Congressional Award, which is the highest award a civilian can get through congress. :)
I'm excited that I get to go and have an adventure this summer, I'm excited I'm going with my mom. :) I'm actually glad my rest of my family can not make it, I understand and agree with my mom that my siblings would enjoy and benefit from the trip, but it would be to much. I would be hard to do all the things on my schedule and try to change it for them or work around it.
I am not able to do that well, and trying to orchestrate two different activities going on at once with a family of 6 is a little on the overload side.
I'm happy my mom will be there with me and that she can help me through going on stage in front of people again. I'm scared about the ceremony for my medal, I'm walking again in front of people and yeah, not my sort of thing.
My reception on the 26th, went really well. :) There was a lot of socializing, cotillion dancing, ultimate Frisbee, and volley ball :) some of my best friends clicked and became awesome social bubble ^.^
Anyway enough about that, I'm upset and scared and ended up crying on the way home from the dentist yesterday.
Normally going to the dentist is very hard for me, and I try to keep it to myself because I should be old enough to face the dentist. I go anyway, and my mom makes me. Normally I'm not a very happy person and if you even look at me wrong I blow up. I get nervous, sweaty palms, my heart thumping everywhere, and my brain going wacko thinking "I'm going to die". When I go for my normal check up, I normally come out no cavities no needing to go back and I'm stress and worry free until the next check up in 6 months.
I get to go back this time, no not because I have cavities; but I have enamel issues and there are two teeth that have been on watch for a while, and one is getting really bad and has been fixed several times and is still decaying, so the dentist is trying to fix that one again. :( I now get to back to the dentist on Wednesday [[the 12th]] and get my tooth fixed.
I know it's routine and I should be used to it, but I can't help and feel freaked out. I can't help but feel anxious about the whole thing. The big thing is, [[yes I know, almost 18 and still need my mom]] my mom is not going with. Me, my older sister and first younger brother are going and as much as my older sister tries to help me get over myself and comfort me [[which sometimes, it's best to leave me alone and not touch me]] I like my mom there. I don't know why, I guess she's a security blanket or something. I just don't want to go back, :/ I have had a history of issues with my teeth and I'm scared. I know that's normal human feelings, but sometimes I wish I didn't feel this. I just dread having to go back and am scared.
So hence why I was crying on the way home from the dentist. [[And don't tell me to grow up and get a life. This is something I find difficult in my life, and don't need people telling me to suck it up.]]
