God,
I feel like crying.
This has been a season of just crying tears or joy tears of desperation tears of self hate and most of all tears that fear to trust.
Please please please help me not be afraid to trust.
My trust is so broken and so frail and so sad and so small. I don't even have enough to make an once.
I'm so broken and you know i have a hard time trusting you and trusting people around me. That I have a hard time understanding my own emotions and every time my trust my tiny piece of trust is misused or broken in my own fault or by someone else. I hurt so bad. You heal and make all things new so I'm asking to give me trust and rise from ashes to become a trusting person.
It's so scary and I'm sure you know, you trusted even when you knew you'd be betrayed.
God, please help me trust.