Odd thing of the day,
I feel slighted. and I think I know why and it shouldn't bother me much. but it's not fun.
not by my parents mind you.

Just feel a little left out that I'm not able to jump up and do anything on the spur of the moment with my friends since they are all busy with school and work themselves.
It's annoying and hard to think that I'm going to be lonely for a while....
It is hard to deal with my sister being so hyper and perky and mushy.
Makes me wonder if I was like that, and I most likely was.
BUT I wasn't asking my sister questions about her experiences. I wasn't rubbing in her face that I had a "guy" and she didn't.
I didn't do mushy crap on Skype and Skype a guy 18 billion hours a day!
I didn't get to do that. I wasn't able to fully express my guy and me and claim it to the world.
like she can, and here she compares herself to me.

I feel down today, and it's not fun. I don't know what else to feel.

Will I fail in life? I don't know.
 I have a direction with school, but I do enjoy the social aspect of everything and it bothers me to no end that my social life seems empty and I think that's why I can be down and sad.
I think that's the problem I see my friends spur of the moment able to do something and I have to plan in advanced.

I just really don't want to deal with anything right now, not even school. I feel depressed and it's bad.

So here I locked myself in my room, and am trying to focus on school. >.< Idk what to do, just got to buck up and be me right? breathe, and focus on my life.
Just breathe ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJCc6AxxImY

I feel this is my generation and the younger generation after me, it hurts to know all these girls and boys are going to experience heart break over and over for a fling. It's sad. :/

and that and I feel like I had a fling with my friend, and I still hurt from it with constant reminders because my sister wont shut up about it.
She doesn't know how not to ask, because she's enjoying a relationship for 1 month. Ohhh yay go build me a brick wall >.> makes me somewhat upset that she's not considerate of my emotional hurt?
I'm getting better but it still hurts so yeah. -_-   :(