So I feel my best friend is drifting away. It's hard to deal with. I want to talk and enjoy their company and shooting aliens (aka covenant from Halo) with them. Why is it so hard to deal with emotions I can't control?
I feel so depressed most of the time, and why? I have no clue. I feel alone and to the point I cant live on much longer like this. Then I'm reminded of the amazing talents and love of my family and friends and a best friend. I want to be able to have more, than what I have. Why cant my world just suddenly be fixed!?!
It's so hard that I've been crying every night, because I don't know what to do about me. I have the most difficult time trying to control my emotions. I try so hard and my efforts are in vain because they don't seem to work. I'll get agitated and depressed for no reason. :(

I want to be me again, and now i feel as if I can't ever be me. I just want to be happy and not scared and amazing and I still can't break out of my shell.