yeah.................

Feeling like a total failure to everyone around me.
That I'm no longer good enough for anything.
That I've screwed up and no longer am liked.
yeah. no clue what to do. so yep, I'm sucking it up and pressing on.
I'm afraid that I really did screw up.

Don't really want to do much anymore with my life. I'm that down and hard on myself. I have to be perfect for my parents and for my family and for me. If I'm not perfect what will I do, or who will I be?
I'm so grumpy and grabby and upset and then I hurt people and then feel horrible. What am I to do ? I want to scream and curl up to cry at the same time.
This isn't easy and I just don't know how to move forward. I don't know what else to do.