to young?

to young to soon? yes to young to soon to marry. All I've had on my mind lately is how I'm not a good enough person and yet alone a good enough daughter or girlfriend to even be living.
I'm jealous of a lot because I wish it was me.
Getting caught up in the future and what I don't have I need to realize what I do have and what I need and want.

What I need?
Basic needs, emotional needs, God, and my family around me.

what I have?
Work, school, a future, family, and a boy friend I don't deserve, a car, and a heart.

What I want will come, I know that. But it will come in the time God provides. 

It will come when I'm ready and when life continues to go on.

Thinking of all this, I know I'm human and I see oh my word that person has what I want and I am so lucky that God and the holy spirit calmed my envious side down to a calm and undetectable level.
I love that.
I have the best life out of my family, or so I would to think.
I'm blessed with the fortunes and gifts I have now. For that I am grateful.
I have a future ahead of me, and I'm looking forward to it. To the achievements and to the hope that God brings the next morning.
I'm at peace now. But that surge of envy scared me and then to have a mental attitude of positive and selflessness. That is a God send. That is amazing and I'm blessed. I hope one day that I can instill this in my children in the future. 

Thank you God for opening the eyes of my heart. For letting me see you and everything you do in my life and I pray that I continues to see all the good in the world and the hope you bring.

I'm great where I am at :)