Scared.

Have you ever been scared and you didn't know what to do.

Truth is for me. Right now I am scared. My family has recently been sick and fortunately my mom and I were not sick the first time. I became sick two weeks ago. ( Including this week) I have and ear infection and boy is it sure annoying. My ears are not clearing up like they have done in the past. My ears are clogged to the point were I can not even have a simple conversation with the person next to me. My ears have all ways been a problem ever sense I was little. I truthfully do not want a repeat of what has happened. My ears were fine and now, I can only hope that it is allergy season that therefore lays the reason of my ears. I have an appointment with my ear doctor next month and hopefully something good will come out of it. Because I am over tired of my ears with what happens. Yes, I might become deaf when I am older but at the moment knowing what is happening bothers me tremendously. Knowing that this happened when I was little and might happen again. I am glad God, gave me the gift of parents so they could take care of me and I them. I just wish, really wish with all my might that my ears were not my problem. I love hearing their voices. The sound is built into my head that when ever I hear them I can be sure that it is them. Right now, I am scared. I know what ever God does will be for him and I will be told to make the best of it. I am willing to accept that my ears will never be completely healed. That does not mean I can not try. I wish and pray right now that I my ears would become better and that my life can get back to normal.

Along the lines of doctors. My mom has had over 13 doctors' appointments in the last five weeks. Aghghg my mom is busy. Yes, that is a lot. I can not imagine what goes through her time line and thoughts of which can be lead off and brought back. O boy does her schedule look busier than that of mine.