Am I a failure?

Im not a failure. I didn't pass my math test today. Had a 62% needed an 80 to pass.
Am I dumb? No, I'm not dumb. I struggle like everyone else in the world. I'm human and I make mistakes. Am i a failure? No, because I tried. If I didn't try I would be lazy and unmotivated.
Nothing is worst than the feeling of disappointment in yourself, but there is always tomorrow.

I need to find a way to relieve stress and there is a way I can handle it. I'm just having trouble trying keep it well handled.
I used to cut, my body and mind now recognize that as a way of relieving stress. I'm not going to cut. I don't want to cut , yet the urge is there. I don't want voices back in my head. I don't want to face that demon and bring a new one into my life! I just want to breathe! I think I now have a developing eating disorder. I'm not sure but it's scary. I'll say that much.
You know the saying, "when I sleep that's when i can escape reality?"
I can't. I don't sleep. I have trouble even getting 5 hrs each night. I have nightmares when I'm to stressed. I have nightmares which make me not want to sleep because I'll see my nightmares again that night. I'm scared to sleep. I'm scared to do anything incase I might do something wrong. I'm scare if I don't figure out a way to get stress off of my shoulders, ill break even more.
I'm human, I can only do so much. I need to be able to live and think.