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SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!
No offence to any one, but school does not rock. no matter where you are it won't and I still have college left! ahghghghghghg I'm pulling out my hair now with this and I still have a lot left to go and do. One thing about this is I have no clue on what I want to be. I have considered of being a movie star, but oh my I can imagine somehow what it would turn out like. My mind does crazy things and I can usually see from a different point of view. Unsure of how though. I have also considered to take some of those test things that help you determine what line to follow; then you just have to choose off that list. This year I am a freshman and I can't believe how it's gone by so fast. Life in particular. How when you're little and you want time to go by fast so you can do this and that. When what we really needed to do is just take it easy and let time do its job. Now on the other hand, I just want time to stop so I can catch up to it. Why does life happen so fast?
I look at my mom's life and I don't know how she does it. She is so busy that I wouldn't even be able to catch up to her. Then I look at my life and see less but feel like it's overwhelming.
What can I do but ignore some of my friends and tell them that I am not able to play, just so I can get what I need to done. I feel that I am relied on by a lot of people-and don't I know it-I don't want to let that down. Everybody should know what that feels like. The hard part for me is to say no when I have to. I love helping and doing things to keep my mind busy. Yet, if I still keep saying 'yes' to everything. Then my life will never be the same. So I have tried to reason with myself and do everything that is needing to be done first, then just go down the crazy in-eventful life of mine. So in conclusion I will be doing what's needed. My life is going to be a whole lot worse, before it becomes better.

Thoughts

Thoughts. People can't and don't know what you think. Sometimes you don't even want to think because you're afraid to. Some people say whats on their mind and then get in trouble for it later. My opinion on thoughts is that you need them to kind of stay sane. When you're talking to yourself that's known as thinking out loud; the funny thing is when you're thinking out loud is way to loud people become suspicious. Then there are the thoughts that stay inside you dwell into fantasies and then become futuristic dreams. Who knows on what you think. Because what you think is your own personality. If you have thoughts and then express them it's a different story. When the story is sprung to life by an author it develops, into a marvelous book.
Soon it might get published and then it is famous. I have thought and thought about how my life would differ if I did something different the previous day. Say that I had been mean to my younger brother and instead of being mean and doing something that I might regret in the future I do something nice and caring. It would make a difference.

I have thought about the new year and how it has come to pass. My mind never raced on how something so little time wise would be so significant in a monstrous way. You wouldn't realize how it past until it did. I am talking about being in 2010. It seams different because you would know that it passed and yet it feels as if it was still the year before. When I look at it now, I know I had a very Merry Christmas and that my new was very weird. My new year was something unspectacular. I first tried a sparkling wine, I didn't really like the taste of it that much until I kept sipping and finally chugged down the rest to go to bed. I then also broke a wine glass, I was fortunate enough not to have been hurt at all. I then tried to go to bed and finally did around two. After laying there waiting for the wired me to fall asleep I was about to get out my computer and then finally slept. My Christmas was miraculous. It was breath taking to see my younger brothers just be so happy and wanting to get me and my older sister things. My mom had to tell them no and to put things back in the store. I was touched by this and all of the students that I teach at Ambrose, for an after school program, they and my family made a special year for me.
I have a list of things that I want to do this coming up year. They are special to me and I wish that I could get rid of distractions so I could just focus on these particular things.

I wish to tell you that keep your thoughts alive and keep memories among them. Have a heck of a time with the new year and try to get through it all in one piece. Good bye for now.

This is how it is

It's that majorly helpless overwhelming time of year yet again. It's that time of year to count your blessings keep your loved ones near and enjoy family and friend. Giving gifts and receiving. There is one thing that keeps getting cut out of the holiday that we are going to celebrate. Not many people realize that at the last moment they push Jesus out and ignore him till the new year or even the day after. The one thing that would be wonderful in the world if one Christmas that we could just listen to God and read the bible and not worry about gifts. I would find that just breath taking. It's a miracle that any one, including me, would do it. I found it very exciting last year or the year before when me and my family went to give this family that couldn't afford Christmas and the happy faces that made you feel good was just amazing! The feeling that you get is just fanatical. Instead of wanting this year even though I did tell my parent that I did want somethings but to me that was still to much. Isn't Christmas supposed to be about giving what you can and then thanking God that you could? I have had a hard time trying to figure out what to get my family and I can't even say......the one thing that I know is God has taken care of us this year and has helped us so much. With just everything with him in his hands has help tremendously..... I don't even know where to begin. I also composed this poem in October of 07 I would like you to read it....

CHRISTMAS. by Emily Peel.

Christmas is a time of thanks and giving
because of today a baby is living.
For he came to us by Gods hands
this little baby was for every man.
Mary was mom and Joesph the dad
even the little baby was glad.
That we could know about him
but every season we don't see him.
Why must it be about presents and the
tree, when God is here with us in
presence and with me.
The way he saved us was a miracle alone
because soon Jesus was on his throne.
Please have a safe Christmas and think
about what I've said.
Because the most important thing is some-
thing we have forgotten.

Please really think. Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

A-m-a-zing! Really A-m-a-zing!

I have only just realized something in my life, that I hadn't before. You know when you have problems and you just can't stop thinking about. How one very simple wrong turn would make it different. I have once, the only thing is I really freaked out about it, when I found out. The very thought of it going through my head me being a grouch......I wasn't happy with the turn of events. This was a week ago. My mind raced when I was in my room. How in the world would I live with this. Talk about future events that I didn't want to happen. I stop everything in its track. My knees bent and I landed on my bed. Truth be told, I never once found myself or seeing this happen. With my head bent I confesed to God that I didn't want this event to happen. That as a human I could never process it through and through my head. The funny thing is, is that when I told God I wanted this to be in his hands and never really think about it. Precious moments afterwards were so releaving. Nothing and I repeat "NOTHING" ever like this had ever happened to me. The moment after I told God, I felt like I was just free. He took away my burden so I wouldn't have to bear it. That's why he's there. He's here for all of us. I never once had ever felt this paticular moment of realizing that he's here with me. He wants my happiness and love with a whole other load of things. He's the reason we are here and the reason in the future. With out him we wouldn't be here trying to do our best in everything. It's like we are the little todler looking up to their Daddy when he's telling you not to do something, your not supossed to do it. Right? It's like when you're on the end of your parents bed and your Daddy is telling you to jump because he's going to catch you afterwards. It's because he's testing your faith. You have to have faith before you do anything or even trust him but you jump and you always no matter how long or big the jump is, you will always end up in his arms. You need faith to let God handle your life and you have to give it over to him before he can help you. It's like saying you're a christian when you go to church and really aren't. There is a big difference in this world. Between everything, when everything's fine and we start to push him away because we are done useing him as a crutches and then when distater hits you end up calling around and wondering were you put him. It's the world people. Anyway after I let God take controll, I went down stairs and apologized to my Mom and Grandpa that I was sorry for my tude. That I wasn't being the nicest. I am writting about this and it's been a week. Yes I counted the days, but it didn't really come back to nag me of how my life would be different. The only reason it's different is because I let God take and have controll. Even being a Christian and not letting it happen is really dificult. So I let it happen and this is how it came out.

Can't believe it.

How many of you know someone that has the roughest life in the world? (In my opinion) I do. She's the most amazing person that has so much on her plate and clears it after moving things and adding more...... It's my mom. she has so much to do and gives so much of her time that she has so little time for herself. I love her, she's the best mom. I appreciate her so much and I wish I could relieve the stress off of her shoulder's while my dad's gone. It's so hard seeing everything, just fall apart. Like a machine that's gears aren't functioning right. My family is laid back a little, but not so much. It's really hard to try and do stuff for the whole family and yourself, when all of you are bickering, even yourself. My mom tries so hard to help others, just to be brushed off. The whole deal, with everyone....... I guess what I'm trying to say is I really want to help her, I just think that she won't want me too is because.......I do so much. I think that my family does need to try harder and let me and my parents relax a little. But then my question is, what will I do. I kind of live to help, it's too much for me to let go....... this is the part where I might say that I'm to much like my mom. (whom is wonderful by the way) It's happening............. Christmas is the best time to let parents not worry about what to get the little kids. they shouldn't worry about that. the kids should worry about the parents. Let them relax and help ease their minds. Kids are supposed to take care of the parents and that's what I want to do...... I love my parents dearly.....the most in the world and universe. What does that compare for how much they loved you the moment they knew about being pregnant with you. They love you and then you loved them when you were really little. Life is really amazing and it's how you translate it. I don't know why I'm rambling about doing such but its what I feel at the moment..... I need to go, anyway life is a passage way till you get to the other side. Bye.

awesome

hi, it's me again.
I just had a fun sleep-over!!!!
It was fun, we watched Harry Potter number 1 and
went to bed. it was fun this morning I got to sleep in till 10!
YEAH!!!!! We had a good breakfast thanks to my friend's
mom. it was french toast. which was amazing, then we went
to the Y it was good....we swam for a while and then I came
home. The funny thing is, we wouldn't stop hugging each
other when our parents were talking. We also had a laugh
because we were signing, but also talking at the same time
and my mom made a comment that when signing we aren't
supposed to talk. it was funny, though...........we couldn't stop
hugging, anyway probably got to go and I have nothing else
to talk about so bye for now.

Authors Having Fun.

Elli: "Hi my name is Elli as you can see. I am here to talk to you about authors, yes that's right, correct, left? wait....why am I saying these things? I'm reading from a index card? what index card says, say what?"

Merry: "Hi I am Merry, if you're wondering what Elli was doing? well she was reading from an index card like I am. Wait I'm reading from an index card too........Um...*looks nervous*"

Elli: "Hey Merry what are you doing?"

Merry: "I'm talking to you while reading an index card, that the author wrote I mean typed for us to read off of so we could talk? Author who wrote what, say what?"

Elli: "Who's the author anyway? *looks up*"

Merry: *looks up also and makes weird face expression*

Elli: "What did you do that for Merry?" *still looking up*

Merry: "I have no idea it just came on all of a sudden *reading card* HEY! who put that reading card thing on this?"

Elli: "I don't know. Maybe" *Elli runs around in circles while singing 'Marry Has A Little Lamb'*

Merry: "Wow, I didn't know that could happen." *Merry starts to flap her arms and fly* *looks at both arms* "How do you stop this? Elli? I need help! Wait what am I saying who knew this could happen either?"

Elli: "Who's fleece was white as snow, Um......why am I singing?" *stops spinning and looks up at Merry* "I'm coming Merry," *Elli spins (yet again) and turns into super Elli. Looks down at legs,* "Sweet! I get to where tights!"

Merry: "aghghghghghghghghgh!!!!!!!!!!!!! that was unexpected"

Elli: "I'm coming" *Elli flies up into the air and gets a hold on Merry and brings her back down safely* "That was fun, hey why is my mouth moving when I'm not doing anything?"

Merry: "I don't know, hey I'm doing it to ahghghghg, I didn't plan that , aghghghghg! or that. Okay will you just stop it who ever you are?"

Whoever you are: "Nope, It's my job to do this." *writes with pencil* "Okay I'm not doing anything? What's going on?" *Whoever you are jumps into the air does eighteen back flips off of a dresser and lands in a pool of water* "Who put the pool here?!? and why are you in tights" *whoever you are looks at Elli.*

Elli: "I'm not sure, I was wondering the same thing?"

Merry: "Me too, and why do I have a hair brush in my hair?" *looks up and tries to see it and falls over backwards, onto a trampoline.*

Elli: "Cool, I want to do that." *Elli does the same thing*

Whoever you are: "Neat!" *whoever you are screamed!*

Elli/Merry: "We want to stop now, can we please, please please?!?!?"

*misc. person walks in through a door. literally*

Misc.: "Nah I haven't decided that yet......"*Misc. realizes something.* "If I'm not doing anything then what am I doing here? Omgosh! what are you doing?" *Misc. looks at Elli and Merry, who are now off the trampoline and walking on a tight rope* "Help! author you have to help them help! wait is this an index card?" *Misc. said while reading index card*

Whoever you are: "Okay I am tired of this anyone who's tired yell!"

*Misc. Merry and Elli look at Whoever you are very weirdly, and then raise their hands.*

Merry: "I thought this was going to be simple and not hard." *Merry starts to cry.*

Elli: "I want this to stop!!!!! now!" *Elli runs over Misc. with a speed boat*

Misc.: *pops back up off the ground and hit whoever you are with a rubber duck*

Whoever you are: *laughs* "Wait why am I laughing?"

Misc.: "Why is he laughing? wait again who's doing what with the index card?" *Misc, reads index card. Misc. is then upside down, in the middle of the air.*

Elli: "wait I don't want to do this I really don't" *Elli screamed as for she was about to jump off a high dive board and suddenly skidded to a halt at the end of the board. Waving arms frantically to keep balance.*

Merry: "I really want this to stop." *she takes a pot and pan out of her pocket and looks down* "How did those get there? oh well." * suddenly she chases Elli off the end of the diving board.*

Elli:*jumps off the diving board and does three loop 'd loops, does two front flips, one and a half back flips, and ends up doing a perfect dive right into jello*

Whoever you are/ Misc.: *hold up cards that have the number ten on them*

Merry: *is on a horse riding backwards while hitting herself with a hammer in the head* "This really *bonk* doesn't really *bonk* hurt *bonk* much. why am I *bonk* on a horse *bonk, bonk* Hey! look a kitty *looks sideways* *bonk on the side of the head* Ouch that *bonk* hurt. *looks forwards and hit herself in the head* *bonk*"

Elli: *Eats her way out of the jello, pool and slips on the side and hits her head and is now pinned down* "I've had it author please, just please make us stop,"

*author stops everything*

Latter that day Merry and Elli were laying in the grass on a hill.

Elli: Hey Merry?"

Merry: "Hey what?"

Elli: "Who do you think the author was that made us do weird stuff today?"

Merry: "I'm not sure *reading from an index card.* Okay, great not again!*

Elli: "You're reading from an index card? *she said while reading an index card* NO!"

thank you for reading my little adventure, hoped you liked it.
I did this to have fun but along the way my brothers started
to make more stuff so this goes to them for having more
imagination than me.